On the hunt

still on the hunt for jobs! sent out several applications but still waiting for news...bahhh especially excited about the one which will be based in China. *pls call me up pls call me up....!* lol.

posted to SME team for about 1 or 2 weeks now? at least i get to get out of the office to visit clients. most memorable one was visiting the fishball factory at bedok. Smelly, slippery, dirty, was so afraid i would fall wearing my 3 inch heels. Hanging on for my dear life. But dont look down on these SMEs k...at least the boss earns 10-20k per mth. hahaha

time is passing so slowly in the office. wonder how long i hafta take this shit. blehhhh

and lastly, its interesting going out with some one older. Interesting. haha

Stressed up.

Feeling all stressed up. Feeling all alone and feeling like a big L. Cos I've so many expectations for myself. Everything is just not going well. When will it all be good again?

Can I just run away..Escape from everything...

Loving some one is giving them the power to hurt you, but trusting them not to.

It has finally ended.

I don't know to feel sad or relieve that its finally over. Had happy times and bad times together, but we have too many problems in between us. Sick of feeling hurt and uncared for. I deserve better.

When many people told me we're not compatible, I chose to ignore but now I've proven them right cos we're just not fitted together.

I'm only sorry for not being truthful to my feelings in the first place...

Just wanna leave it all behind now.

First week of work.

Just survived first week of work at HLF. Gotta say I'm still trying to get used to all the finance stuff and terminologies :S Everyday its interest rates, inflation rates, UT, structured notes...blablabla suppose to come up with a new savings plan and endless meetings with my boss hours at a time. Like some 1-1 tutoring. Hai

Looking on the bright side think i'm learning things and another Male MA is coming next month! haha. at least i got another team member... And can share my workload. hehe

Went to Walas on thurs to catch the unexpected, some disgusting Uncle came over to talk to us. He's just like a irritating fly that never gives up, so gross! came over like 4 times? Everyone was like staring at me and pat when he came over, so damn embarrassing. Luckily, gerald was there to shoo him away. Should've just told him to F off man...

Caught Zohan over the weekend...damn crappy show. Found it rather disappointing, despite it being an adam sandler's show. Also, met up with yixian and mich on sat for some catching up session. YX leaving for aussie land on the 10th, so jealous! haha Really had a gd time catching up and as usual Hong mei was our most talked about person. heh so evil...

oh wells, im just looking fwd to my pay day for now...so many things to buy and pay for!

1 week countdown.

Almost forgot what was my password when I logged in. Oh well nothing much exciting has happened recently except for bumming around, looking for jobs, supper, watching movies...Boring.

One more week before I start work. Wonder how will it be like, the people the office the food? OH MAN... though it is not the company which I really wanna work for, but I'm definitely gonna get some experience and $ before I find something better. Officially saw my final semester's results online, definitely heading for second upper class honours! Some how all these doesn't seem as important now. OH wells, at least I hope I didn't disappoint my parents or family. IF my dear mother is still unhappy, so be it. Cos I don't really care anyway.

Feeling kinda... I don't know how to describe. Lost? Moody? Sick of everything?

Haven't talked to him for 2 days... It's bothering me but I'm not doing anything about it. Why can't he see what's wrong. Sometimes I just don't feel that I am his priority and taken for granted.

Studying for last exam

WEll, supposed to be researching and studying for GMS right now...but got distracted and a sudden urge to blog lol.

Jessie is back! gonna meet up with her as soon as my exams are over and i can't wait to see the joe or leng..basically mumbai 'family' reunites haha.

Went for 2 interviews recently. Got the job for one of them (but thinking of rejecting it) and not pinning very high hopes on bloomberg. haha how man...dunno if I should reject my first job offer. I got till tmr to decide.

Anyway, thanks to the GST package I'm gonna use that $ to subsidize part of my HK trip!! (Departs on May 11 and home coming on the 16th!) So excited. I wanna shop, eat and drink! Not that keen on Disneyland cos to me it's a total waste of money.

Sidenote...feel like developing photos for all my trips but it gonna cost me a BOMB. I mean a bomb. Haven't develop my photos since my mumbai internship.... :S I wanna develop them cos I don't trust computers which may be down anytime then all my photos will be gone!

Better get back to my work now...and I shall continue to pray for more job interviews coming my way!!! :P RAWR

Back from the Dead

WEEEEEEEE haven't been blogging for so long. Just wanted to announce that uni life ended with the last GMS presentation. After slogging and working hard for the past 2 weeks, it's finally over! I guess it went alright though its like damn tough trying to fend off 1 hour of Q&A. Proud of myself for naswering some questions thou I was just blabbering sometimes. LOL

Anyway good job and cheers to all my team mates! Enjoyed all the laughter we had doing the 'fire management' and orang utans...hahaha

Gonna meet pat later to check out HK tour rates and meeting limmy and patty for drinks on sat! hehe I yearn to drink again!!!! I want BEER I want BEER!

Other issues at hand...continue to send out applications and hopefully receive some news soon. Boo.

Was suppose to meet up with ed yesterday (which is RARE for me to meet him on a weekday). 'Suppose' means i didn't get to meet him in the end. Reason: overslept and lost his wallet. I waited for him in town, loitering aimlessly in wisma then in borders, for about an hour. Fuck you know the thing i hate most is to Wait. Yet when he called me, he didnt tell me why he wasn't here. Instead told me his problems and how bad his whole day went. IS that how u appease someone who's been waiting for you for an hour? Is that how u appease some one who is pissed?! GODDD hell no.

Don't know is he just weird or what. What my bro said set me thinking...

Bernard says:
wat u like abt him anyway??
-ivwhy- says:
like then like lor
Bernard says:
but he weird leh
Bernard says:
things he say doesnt make sense
Bernard says:
so petty like a gal
Bernard says:
super immature also
Bernard says:
his maturity is like 18 years old instead of 23
Bernard says:
thats why i dont understand wat u see in him
Bernard says:
can u tell me some good points of him??

I couldn't answer his question, I dont know what to say at that moment.
What's going on here....everything seems so uncertain. my life is so uncertain. my future is uncertain.